To say that I pushed myself hard to pull AVN and X3 off would be an understatement. Determined to get my website together before a giant social feature I did all that I could and then some.
Butting heads with the denial of being an idealist and how I’d like the world to be versus how it is, some serious social output for an introvert, personal life stuff, and wanting to do everything myself, I found myself depleted.
Having gotten into the routine of pushing past discomfort and doing everything perfectly without taking a moment to breathe, is but of course a recipe for burn out.
Hitting that emergency pause button to tend to my personal needs after neglecting them for months, I can feel my pulse coming back.
There are times to push yourself, and then there are times that you need to reset. I got stuck in pushing myself, making me an ineffective human.
Wrapping up what I’d call my “existential analysis” that has led me back down my more creative path, I’m excited to say I have a lot that is currently being edited.
In true fashion of running with ideas that I have with a shoe string budget as I’m learning everything in production, I’m leaning in with the camp and fortunate to have skilled friends who can help me when they can create something more cinematic.
Things will be hot, they will be goofy, they will be conceptual, and applying an artistic twist to jerk off material has its uniqueness.
This coming week I’ll be bringing things back with the cinematic art that collaborations with Sheseducedme.com are with my dear friend Angel Dark.
I need to figure out how to make the ease of accessibility of OF and the ease of VOD access, blogging, etc, are under my own control. Having direct access to my fans in this unstable environment we exist in is the penultimate, so how to incentivize and build a symbiosis are important.
I’m excited to be on the upswing of renewal and I’m looking forward to more creating 💕
XoXo
Jess